I usually love the rainy weather, the coldness, the lack of sun and the chilly breeze, except for that musky smell that rain has.
But today for reasons close to my heart, i'm alone, inside, wallowing.....
=( i wish i had some sorta routine to keep me in my place.


I've been meaning to get something out that i haven't been able to in a while.
Theres a reason why i'm try to make the most of the days that i can with you.
Theres a reason why it seems like im haunting you.
The reason i that, while it may be convenient to you, it isn't so convenient to me.....
I need to be working by that time and so that leaves me with no time to fill the gaps with you.
And then theres the fact that we must part ways later.... whether its worth it to stay in sydney is soooo unclear.
If you asked me 2 weeks ago, i would of said, i would budge even if someone had to carry me away.
But now.... it seems like a totally playing field. I don't like this feeling. i don't like this darkness.


Oh n im sorry otter. i sorta lost hope in you since you didn't call me back, but i think once again my brain exploded...
=( hella sorry n i didnt bother calling back.....
ahhhh i suck.