Its been a while since ive written.... im sry.
just so many things have happened.
And i find that i'm only writing when im sorta down or alone.
I thought the whole challenge of the list, would keep me online more, but really i lost the knack for posting.
BUT hey i have actually been writing just, not posting so above will be some posts that i've written several days before.
Heres my wrap for today.
1/ my list, days that ive missed n todays
2/ my little rant since, i know u miss it much.
Day 03 — Your favorite television program
I never really watched many television programs,
but say if it was a sitcom or show wise.
It'll have to be 'How i met your mother' and 'One tree hill"
Only cos this shows both know me well. And then theres 'skins'
a show that always reminds me of the shit that happens in this world, n how im lucky im not in half of it.
But if u say regular television, i like sports shows or games, news, docos, game shows, movies i havent seen in a while and just stuff that interests me. I know quite broad. =]
Day 04 — Your favorite book
I never read much... so i dont know what to say, but right now my favourite book would have to be one i read when i was in early high school. Called "Pyrates" about these kids, one of whom was actually related to a historic pirate in his days, n find his map and search through the undergrounds of the modern suburban city. =] there was another one about, this kid stuck in a middle of a war and gets stranded on a deserted island some how, and has to live with this blind me called charlie... but i dont remember the name..... =(
Day 05 — Your favorite quote
I have many great quotes i love.
I'll never forget the quote in coach carter, about how we more powerful than we can imagine,
and then quotes here and there from various shows and people,
especially coach whitey. =]
But i do love latin and greek quotes.
but sry i cant tell u my fav. =P
ask me in person n i might. ^ ^
Day 06 — Whatever tickles your fancy
Well lets see, amy things tickle my fancy.
I love to have an english accent, irish, russian, EVERY accent possible to the english language. xD
I love many things. But mostly anything that can mark a moment in my life. =]
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy
Many photos make me happy, usually just a shot of a friend.
But umm recently a photo that i've been caught staring passionately is actually a shot of an angel.
She knows who she is. And yeh im looking at it right now.....
=( btw its been posted b4 so look through the past to find it =]
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SO many things in life, that don't go according to plan. I hate it when you think you have everything figured out and really you dont!! It really shows that we can really never know the circumstances fully as they are ever changing.
And its when you assume about these presumptions, that you get caught off guard and get kicked off our high horse.
It's like a wet, hard slap in the face, n really brings you back down to earth. For example yesterday, i spent most of my day with rose, visiting her church in westmead, trashed and off my face. But during that time, i fell asleep once, and only pressumed more about a little talk held at her church. But it really brought to realisation of something. I'm one fucking clingy guy.
I couldn't stop thinking about just holding her hand or hugging her so tightly she'd pop. When my mind should be on the talks [ which i were just, they weren't as great as i thought they'd be ], i couldnt.... just the fact she was besides me.. i wanted to just let us be. But sadly cruel fate puts me in the fucked worse situations possible to make me learn, the hard way, so it get through this thick head of mine.
But yeh, Questions arose from the talk given but they dude from creations ministry. And a sudden burst of reality hit me in the face hard. Yes, i took things into my own hands again.
As preparations for lunch was in order with within the pack, i thought hey, dw about my invisibility, just worry about you and your pack, so i snuck out without a word and walked from hall to the mall. But little did i know things turned from meet you there, cos im nothing, to not going, cos i'm nothing and sry ur not on the front line.
I hate how sometimes, the little people get thought of last. You know.... But what can you expect right? I mean we cant't really expect to accepted into this schedule that's already full. I don't like my position, but i know i can't do anything but to force myself into it, but right now i'm quite over it, so i'm just gonna focus on other things on the meanwhile, but yeh thats the story and things grew into a thick cloud of shadows n lost sights among the thoughts. =( leading to a discussion of issues passed.
I wish i could say these things, but really i must tell another day.
Anyways so today has come, And right im miserable and quite tired.
I'm discontent about my future paramore, not leaving an opening within her lineup, even though my self am suppose, to be a suitor to those apparent feelings. =(
=( don't feel bad for me, feel bad for those who sorta just make me included in their world when its convenient for them.
And so i've decided to stop communication of every sort.
the last contact point is a little tab. Fone will only communicate if i ask it to, and online wise i will observe and that'll be it.
see if i can lst the week?
