Often i fall into this darkness that envelops myself and only myself...
it forms this barrier between me and the outside.
And it seems like in just trapped in this black bouncing ball...
and as i pass by everyone, i realise that sometimes its sooo hard just to see pass the thickness of charcoal casing that i'm encased within, that sometimes we pass all these memories too with all these people and so get so frustrated we become so upset and mad about those who we can only see vaguely...

But in all honestly its until one spot clears up that we can see those who are close by and helping you reach out beyond this darkness that you trapped yourself in.
And when that does happen you realise that little trail that you've left behind on those who cared for you, and realise the pain and hurt you have given them because you only focus on being masked towards them...
Sometimes we can't fully understand this, until we outta the emotional illusion....
and then sometimes its too late.
But what's the lesson? no matter how hard it may be to recover those you've left behind, follow your trail, n save those who tried save you.
its going to be ok. =]