Today has been sorta weird. I mean there were the usual up and downs, in very unusual ways....

I woke up with a raging headache, and by the time i woke, it was exactly the time the bus left for church. So i called Spliff to grab a lift, being the nicest person and a great friends, she came with no second thoughts, along with Rach. Being me it takes a bit of hesitation to get ready and this eventually leads to me being late. So as we was driving to church, we was just talking and really, for the first time it felt as if i really could just share anything with some friends that wouldnt care if i said all the wrong things, they would laugh and then talk to me seriously about anything. Anyways today's sermon was quite intriguing, It was about how, sometimes it doesnt take much for a lil bit of bad to affect ALL good. And sometimes its true, i mean i'm a living example. =( but dw guys i'll try my best to not infect all of you. Anyways afterwards i went to lunch with the CMi folks n just sat there while everyone was eating, since i had no money, and afterwards as some went home, others went to westfield to watch alice in wonderland and get there ears pierced... (it doesn't look all that painful, but then again what do i know?!..... should i?) anyways, so as they went to watch the movie i left for home and just ate migoreng and watched some stuff on the laptop. All awhile, i should of prepared for going out later. But instead i took it out on Dan for getting to hook on video games and pretty much focus on the game and not trying to make ends meet...... BUT its ok i got everything organised and had a good night. Anyways, so i asked the guys to leave first to get money for the Dinner, so as i was the one who was technically making them late, i took most blame and quite frankly it wasnt half as bad, but just sometimes, when you are protecting someone and they dont know it, and instead they backlash you for it, some times its a bit hard..... BUT the real reason, i was soooo angry about everything, and lashed out cos i couldnt find my cardi.............. silly right? anyways yeh, so we got picked up and then ate dinner and share great time with friends. Sometimes it doesnt take much for me, but that was enough to turn my night around. So as everyone left for home, a brother who we thought would do anything for us, instead just made us walked from Carlo to Parra... but hey guess if he doesnt want to drive us then, well he must have his reasons. Anyways so we walked all the way. We talked most of the way home and just had a great trek.

I want to say HAPPY BDAY KWAN MY LIL BRO!!!! ur growing up in a more better way than i expected and mate you are really like a lil bro to me. Never change and be the good guy u r. =]

Mez, i love you lots, you never cease to cheer me with ur wise yet hateful words =P

Kat im sooooo sry about ur scrotum..... cough cough. Some mochi? jks... don't stop visiting us.

End of the night i feel a bit nostalgic.

there are a few things off topic i must say though. so bare with me?

but dw the bottom part is totally unrelated to this. =]

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So tonight I've been thinking. I've always thought of myself as a romantic and for most of my life, its been like a box, collecting notes on how to be the perfect prince to my princesses.

And i thought i might blog this out. So here's my list on things i hope to do, become, not become, have happen and just hope that some, if ALL, do succeed.

I want her to have that fairytale she deserves.

I want to be that guy that'll change her life as she knew it.

I want to be the one who she remembers when ever a certain song comes up,

certain objects appear,

certain places she goes,

certain things happen, you get my gist.

I want to be the guy who stole her heart,

I want to be the guy who is patched perfectly into the missing hole in her heart.

I want to be the guy who'll never disappoint her,

I want to be the guy who'll protect her when she is in trouble,

I want to be the guy who'll travel, rain, sun or hail, whatever the distance to see her for even a few moments.

I want to be the guy that will stay up with her up until she falls to sleep.

I want to be the guy she can talk with about anything.

I want to be the guy who can take her anywhere she wants.

I want to be the guy who can share anything without her judging me.

I want to be the guy that can give her what she deserves.

I want to be the guy with no limits for her.

I want to be the guy who can sweep her off her feet at any time.

I want to be the guy who can change her mood with a few actions.

I want to be the guy that can show her, she is important in my life.

I want to be the guy that always has a smile for her.

I want to be the guy she can really tell about to her friends and family.

I want to be the guy that sees past all her faults.

I want to be the guy who'll treat her right.

I want to be the guy with the right words for her.

I want to be the guy who can write to her with ease.

I want to be the guy who gets nervous about her.

I want to be the guy who ticks all her boxes.

I want to be the guy that takes all the opportunities for her.

I want to be the guy she can depend on,

I want to be the guy who can really open her up to limits she doesn't even know of.

I want to be the guy who can show her life is AMAZING.

I hope she'll be able smile upon seeing me,

I hope she'll love all my friends.

I hope she accepts me in her world, as i do her in mine.

I hope she isn't afraid to lay it to me straight and tell me what i've done wrong.

I hope she'll do anything with me without being bored.

I hope i never hurt her in any way.

I hope she'll travel anywhere with me.

I hope that when she kisses me she feels that special something only i have.

I hope she'll hug me when ever.

I hope she can really find that kid in me.

I hope she'll enjoy the things i enjoy.

I hope she'll endure my craziness, stupidity, me.

I hope she doesn't change for me, but for herself.

I hope she really enjoys music.

I hope she really enjoys life.

I hope she'll expect as much as i can give.

I hope she doesn't feel like I have any obligations to be a certain person around me.

I hope she is herself around me.

I hope she accepts my past and helps me deal with it.

I hope she'll LOVE ME FOR ME.

I hope she finds TRUE happiness in me.

And that's the guy I WANT TO BE.

this is all i can think of right now.... im sry, but it's missing lots.

ill update it for you when i really think about this in a sane mind.

night guys.