It doesn't take much now days to get me upset.
I mean usually i turn a blind eye or just try to compromise with the situation.
But recently I've been upset about something n its something i really have to get off my chest.
PLZ DO NOT READ THIS IF I DO NOT KNOW MY RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SCHOOL FRIENDS!!!!!
sry abt the warning but plz.
Recently i was upset about a certain incident where I put myself into a position to hurt and be truly mean. I let go of values which i lived by and just laid it out to a dear friend and realy upset their feelings, without fully understanding the circumstances.
I was being ignorant me, i totally ignored the major issues unaware of them right in front of my eyes. Im sry to Otter and Carl. Otter, u know i love u dearly, you never been mad at me fully, never told me lies and never withdrew from any say to protect me........ U know i feel crap about the whole incident, but Im sry and thx for setting me straight!.
Carl......what can i say? im upset. im sry that i havent contacted u since the last spout... but when u was upset at me for not making effort for u anymore, isnt it vice versa?
i mean this would apply before even my move into the light, you kno i hate it wen some1 is a hypocrite... this is why im upset
i was always the convenient friend. If you didn't have anyone elses shoulders to lean on, you'd call me... Never did i get a call just to say hey how u doing. Always me to firstly come out to you. N quite frankly i was ok with it, so long as im ur friend. But the princess in you always lead you to believe you was always right. Never content with what you had. I know i still owe u money, but at the same time you kno i dont have the means to pay it back right now. Yet it seems like a public way of attacking me... maybe im thinking too much but still its how i feel.
If u was such a good friend you'd think to say "hey, maybe we should talk it out" but no always self absorbed and never giving a crap about what others may feel.
I dont want to please u anymore. U make the effort if im so important to u. If not just Fuck off.
sry otter.
