I hope you get to read this rose,

i thank you alot of caring and always checking up on me.
Im very lucky to have a friend who cares alot for me like that.
And i kno that i have people in this world who care,
i was arrogant and just out of mind, BUT however i dont need to know that they do,
cos if they do or did, great way of showing it, and if they havent yet then i apologise in advance.
I have fear of being alone, and right now the silence is freakin DEAFENING.

Rose, I have been trying to get over you this and all.
But im not going to lie to myself and say im not still in love with you.
I don't want you to feel as if you're hurting me, but that cant be helped.
I dont know that i'd do without you in my life,
but obviously we cant be the same as before.

I dont need your sympathy, and you may think you are, but you are.
I dont want it nor need it.
Please just let me be.
I might be depressed, but life for me is beyond repair.

thanks.