Its takes us less than a second to change moods, less than a second to change our lives and yet what it does change is much more than wat can be measured..... its quite miraculous what we do to keep ourselves happy. I mean what we do to satisfy ourselves, n ultimately only a select fellow will see making others happy, is what makes them happy. Since young i wanted to be that guy, the dude who you could always have a laugh with, the guy who could give u a smile wen u needed one. Somewhere along the line i lost the plot.... i became that dude i never wanted to be.. angry, selfish, a dick... for that im sorry to my friends.... sry ive let u down...... =(
hehe guess wat kiddies, kenny is happy. k not cos the fact mum is back to her old self n just never able to accept the fact shes wrong. Or the fact that no matter how much i try to move, it still feels as if im still where i was yesterday. BUT!!!!!
guess wat, i think ive fallen completely......
Wen u feel that spark, that warmth... Even i cant fully explain it....
Kan u do something bad n yet good at the same time, serving only one purpose? I did...... Something about her, made me go insane!!!! So as we were just lying there in our moment, it felt so right. Everything seemed as if it stopped, just us in our world for a bit. Don't know if this changes anything but hope she feels like i care. <3
yep. its right. we solved our mystery, now solve urs =D
i ask you, would u rather a celebrity or a pretty girl? to me.......
neither. either way people will seek the attention of both. a pretty girl is eye candy to strangers. a celebrity the eye candy to the world. both leaving a sense of jealousy to a lover.
Happy Feet and Korean BBQ was on the agenda today. The first time ive had to encounter the full force of a partners rentals. But God has blessed me with a girl, with rents so accepting. blessed me with a perfect girl, knows how to play ball, a girl who looks gorgeous, a girl who isnt afraid to say it like it is, a girl who can wolf whistle! (yeh...more man than me.....) n just a girl who can appreciate.
i wanna just tell her that i admire her strength in keeping a promise, so much that she would even deny her own happiness for the happiness of others. but at the same time i hate that i have to wait..... curiosity says that its time that i stop...... so this it guys... ive fallen. in the good way. =]
tonite juju called. surprised n yet happy i picked up, end of the call? depressed... the in between?
silly convo about grapes and just how she was doing. wen it got done to the srs stuff abt me n rose, she was just plain sill, but ok with it then to find i out....... the world knows. yep the fucking world. huh........ i dont get how u can put some1 down sooo easily.... i mean i dont even remeber anymore wat she said to put m down, but just a collection of well used words mashed together with a joking manner, made it seem as if she was just plain ignorant.
huh best of luck with the X. sleepy upset n curious tonite? how the fuck are you?!
besides the 6:30 wake up, nothing could stop my happiness shiny through.
why the 630 wake up call?
lil bro need to the use of a new bag, so who else would deliver his first real high school bag? none other than the lazy brother. . . . . . . .
after the meet up with lil bro i went back to the caste hill home for a bit.
I slept back in my old blue room.
except it looked blue, but wasnt..... twas white... with a blue ceiling.
y...... i felt so safe once i got into that room, n sleeping in the bed that me n lil sis built together.
but yet still i cant get use to the fact its no longer home.
ahhhhh mum really fucked us ova.
for some temporary satisfaction.
ahh well i fell asleep rite after watching some OTH.
then woke up to see my favourite girl, ROSE. <3>
went to cheltenham to go pick her up , but being the naughty girl she is, she was kept in n missed the train i thought she was on, so instead i waited for her to come to epping.
while there i saw a fb friend, sava.
our destination was rhodes, twas quite romantic, we sat by this wharf which was completely empty besides me n rose, just sat n watched the river flow. freindly toadies and gulls, came by to ease drop, she gave me a photo of herself, which was her wen she was young with a baseball mit and ball, with a message on the back. but was the rain that drove us out of that place. then down to the playground to just draw silly messages to each other in the sane, before some graffiti in a tube slide, marked our love. N then the moment.
in my arms, she slept, it was the best feeling ever. i asked head or tails, then as she said heds, i planted my first kiss on her cheek. ahhhhh silly kenny.
n we sat there for a solid hour or more so it seemed.
afterwards a walk to the bridge climaxed by the rain.... it was pouring on us and we shared a hug on the middle of this bridge which marked the half way point, our halfway point, between us official and now. then somehow we walked to the nxt station at meadowbank, where we shared the most longest hug ever and caught the train back to epping, and to end it off a stroll to take her home, was the perfect ending to this day.
afterwards dan and myself went on a lil shopping spree @ ewood, for grocery and cooked dinner, porkchops and chicken xD
I thought about this for a while so, heres my answer
Your voice is like a symphony, written by a maestro of love, played by an orchestra of angels, and conducted by your faith. it knows how to make me smile, make me sad, make me calm, make my day. its like a sweet remedy for a bad day, a sweet melody for a good day. That voice that knows me inside out. ❤
