its been awhile since ive last blogged.
probs since trials started?

i dont wanna admit it but at this rate im going nowhere.
life isnt wat life is about.
im all mixed up about being this person who im not.

WHERE THE FUCK ARE PRIORITIES?
WHERE THE FUCK IS MY COMMON SENSE?
WHERE THE FUCK AM I GOING?!

spent the last few days sorta just driftin around the uts and whitehouse lobbies.
in between lectures n tutes. i feel like im in uni. school seems so endless.
but really im just avoiding the fact that i have a major project due.
im actually still in skool and the fact that i cant keep living like this.

i have in my mind that i will do this and i wll do that. especially afta a shower.
id think to myself k. im going to do this. but wat do i do instead?
FACEBOOK?! OR MSN!!!! ahhhhh this is why im limiting myself.

i have a fd of mine, called train. she is soooooo dedicated to her studies, shes COMMITED TO IT! like more than just a friend.

ahhh wish i could be like her.
n so ill try to do wat she does n tonite i will keep soldierin on.
MUST FINISH MDP BY FRIDAY! 2 nites!!! oush!!!!

i wanted to go dance tonite. but sadly im at home sore n quite frankly really sleepy.
but really i mite just reorganise my thoughts.
FUKIN HELL!!!! I NEED TO FIND MY AMBITIONS!!!!!!!!!

tonite i will commit.